WAITING WITH PURPOSE

I was going through my old e-mails and I found this old draft I've made back in 2009:

WAITING WITH PURPOSE

When I was younger I wanted it all
I didn't care
It was all about me
Consumed in my shallowness and insecurities

Without God I was caught in a storm
I only prayed for shallow reasons
It was all about what God could do for me
Never about what I could do to serve him
I often became angry at him if things didn't go my way
I never really opened my heart and truly listen to him

I didn't have patience or the will to wait
I often had doubt
But I've learned the hard way
All the trials
All my struggles
I thank God for
Without them I would not have realized how much love I have for Him
He has brought me through
Filled my life with joy
Made my life with meaning
I am not angry
He has cleared my vision
Gave me sight
Gave me a sense of balance
He is the reason why I am alive
and I am his instrument of his gift
I strive to be the living example of why life is of value
Each life is capable of soing so many great things
We are amazing souls if only we believe

God has given me so much confidence that I had never had realized before
Everyday I thank him
This does not mean my faith has made life easier but it has given me so much comfort and strength to bear my cross
My relationship with Jesus grows stronger as I take time to pray to him and praise him through the gifts he has blessed me with
I am longing to learn more about him
I am fed through his Living Bread and Living Word
He is my spiritual food

I want to put him first
And it is a struggle at times
Every day I must remind myself of his goodness
And fully trust in his will for me...
Though things may not go as I plan, they will always fall perfectly into place.

~A.V. Lodevico